Work: Day 3

Today was the hardest for me to leave. I put on a good face though. After him getting up at 4:30, feeding, then going back to his crib for a bit, I got ready for work. I left the little guy to be the last thing I needed to do before leaving the house. I HATE waking him up, but I needed to make sure his diaper wasn't dirty and get his clothes changed for the day. So, I did this then loaded him into his car seat. In the process, I realized, this is my morning? My "cuddle" and "quality" time is waking him up to dress him, and putting him in his seat to go to work? This fucking sucks! I try to make the BEST of every minute we have at night. Sometimes he's so cranky from fighting naps off during the day, I feel shorted.
There may be changes on the horizon. Only a few weeks will tell. So, I guess we'll see.